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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 04:48:22 GMT

12/18/07

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 02:24:43 GMT

back from vegas~~

ahhh *____* wonderful trip. coulda been better though.

FOOD. FASHION. ARCHITECTURE. YES.

treasure island has the BEEEESSSTTTT BUFFET EVERRRRR!!! i stole tea from there :D

i also stole soap and lotion from the hotel! it smells good :3

went to the fashion district <3333!!!

and the fashion outlet :D

sadly, i spent over $100 TT___TT so i'm gonna be broke for a while...

but it was SOOOO WORTH EEETTT :DDDD

[EDIT]

I got a fortune <3 This is what it said:

So the devil has been hounding you, and giving you restless days and sleepless nights? Well, all this will soon be a thing of the past. A new turn of events will soon come about. A happy reunion with a loved one will make life all that you ever wanted it or dreamed it to be. You have a very trusting nature and are easily taken in by so-called friends. Do not be so anxious to do favors unto others, as there is one who is just waiting to take advantage of your good nature.

*Your Lucky Numbers: 42, 33, 07, 31, 22, 27*

In advice, it said this to me: "Be more accepting of the opposite gender and do things that you believe that you should do now. Do not wait, or you will regret it."

lol? too late now .__.

[/EDIT]

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 03:08:00 GMT

i keep forgetting to update X___x i know it's a little late, but the beginning of summerschool was pretty fun. man, i suck at ceramics. i almost thought i was gonna bomb that class! hahahaha. well at least the teacher knows i have some artistic signifigance xD can't wait for next semester ~ <3

new art class: BORING. SATERDAY SUCKS NOW TT_____TT I SUCK. *realization of how hard architecture is* noooo D:

angela's party was fun hahaha. man, i suck at that one game :< the color one haha. i even had to leave early ;____; i wonder how the cake cutting went haha. night is the best time for a partee :P

today~

haircut. new one. geez, it's thin :< and layered haha.

that's it so far.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 04:15:40 GMT

really. i can't believe it's over. aims. it wasnt exactly the best year, but i changed alot. i tried to be happier. but in the end, i messed up and missed my chance.

i really love you guys. i can't say how much i appreciate you guys. please don't forget me. i know i won't forget you guys :/ you're my family.

i know i'm gonna miss that stupid idiot. i really liked him too. i guess it's my fault in the end. i should have talked more.

i'm sorry for disappointing anyone. i can't say i tried. because i didn't. i know i'll regret this later. sorry.

even so, i don't regret going this year. i had a lovely time. i got to see everyone graduate and all. you guys are big now, so love everyday to the best! don't make stupid mistakes like your big sister :<

i'll miss everyone alot. maybe i can see you guys again in the future. i really hope so >__< don't forget me. cuz i won't be forgetting you guys. i love you <3

~ Heidi.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Mon, 28 May 2007 21:53:30 GMT

may 26. happy birthday, carolll!!! :D the chinese club party was funnnnn :DDDDD but i had to do karaoke :[ it wasnt as bad as i thought lol (first time i sang in like...5 years?) hahahaha

didn't go swimming :/ ah well. it was good stuff haha.

then there's kristine's party. that was really fun too X3333 we were screaming all over the place hahaha the other tables probably thought we were all scary loool and the waiter hahaha he musta had a hard time with us especially cuz of that straw thing hehe :P

cpk = <3

we watched shrek 3 after that. it wasnt that good lol. well, i guess it was ok...

aquarium. THAT WAS SO FUN :D i thought we were gonna be late! but we werent >BD didn't get to scare maggie w/ the rattlesnake egg things haha. to bad. i'll find something else next time lol.

overall, it was a good weekend.

'cept today. stuck doing hw :[

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Tue, 22 May 2007 03:55:07 GMT

sorry about the other post. i really had to get that out...i mean...i really enjoy cooking (sometimes lol) and drawing for you guys. i just need to do it at my own pace >__< sorry...

no more negative subjects. now to the happy ones :D

saterday was FUN :D que was very spiffy indeed :D didnt see anyone. ah well. it was fun. i can still feel the kiwi burning my throat. went with tiffany and erica :3 i bought black nail polish lol. and a buncha stuff for my mom lol. including that bowl i owed her haha.

sunday = SHABU SHABU <33333!!!THE SAUCES = <3333!!! then i got the silver nail polish to make my nails look metal. it was cool O3O then i got those sunglasses and that wonderful lemonade :DDDD

may 21. birthday. i LOVE you guys :D but really, you didn't have to go get all that stuff .___. well, to day was wonderful. on the way home from aims, i heard a song that said: "i'm a big girl now and big girls don't cry" it made me sad and happy to be 15 :] dunno why. i guess going into life can't be too bad. i just with i could preserve the happiness :]

~Best Day Of The Year~

♥

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Sun, 20 May 2007 20:01:29 GMT

really. stop taking me for granted.

i really hate to post this right before my birthday. if you think it's selfish, then fine.

i want to be nice. i mean, i really love everyone, but ifeel...almost left behind.

i want people to trust me, but not depend on me to the point that i do all the small, insignifigant things for them.

stop asking me for my art. i won't give it to you.

stop asking to see it. i won't show you.

stop asking me for riceballs. i won't make it for you.

stop taking the ideas that i worked so hard to create.

if you think it's something that you can just get anytime for asking, then you're wrong. because these things have a bigger meaning to me than you might think.

so stop.

if you think it's funny to joke around about it, it's not.

i'm sorry for being such a horrible friend. i can't take it anymore.

really, i care. i want to help everyone with their problems. it's just hard for me if it seems like you don't see me as a close person and only a person who will do your favor.

i know it's not like that. it just really seems like it sometimes.

i hope i'll be a better person later in life.

Monday, May 07, 2007

Mon, 07 May 2007 02:27:02 GMT

WARNING: SPOILERS :O

hiddenxsadness: rosalieeee
rosalie: heidiiiii
hiddenxsadness: i'm so sad
rosalie: why?
hiddenxsadness: cuz i was reading fruits basket
hiddenxsadness: and i was reading the last chapter
hiddenxsadness: can i spoil it for you?
hiddenxsadness: lol
rosalie: i guess
hiddenxsadness: aww
hiddenxsadness: but i'd feel bad
rosalie: its koo
rosalie: i cant even get to read them anyways
hiddenxsadness: aww
hiddenxsadness: well
hiddenxsadness: in the end
hiddenxsadness: after all the problems were settled
hiddenxsadness: and everyone found their "other"
rosalie: uh huh
hiddenxsadness: kyou wanted to move out with tohru
hiddenxsadness: and so
hiddenxsadness: they were leaving
hiddenxsadness: and everyone was talking about them
hiddenxsadness: and saying "yeah. i'll see them off"
hiddenxsadness: "remember this?"
hiddenxsadness: and flashbacks and all
hiddenxsadness: and i was like
hiddenxsadness: "awww <:["
hiddenxsadness: *sob*
hiddenxsadness: lol
hiddenxsadness: well
hiddenxsadness: it was really sad
hiddenxsadness: cuz everyone was happy and sad at the same time
rosalie: hah. wait. Kyou ends up with Tohru??????
hiddenxsadness: yeah
rosalie: whaaaaaaaatttttttttt
hiddenxsadness: i'll explain later
hiddenxsadness: annywayssss
hiddenxsadness: i was nearing the end
hiddenxsadness: and then
hiddenxsadness: on my playlist
hiddenxsadness: it stars playing
hiddenxsadness: "where'd you go" by fort minor
hiddenxsadness: and i wanted to cry <:[
rosalie: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hiddenxsadness: i knowww
hiddenxsadness: and right when i finished the last page
hiddenxsadness: it stopeed
hiddenxsadness: *stopped
hiddenxsadness: and i was like: "AWWW *SNIIIIIFFFF*"
rosalie: aw. oh do u have all of the books?
hiddenxsadness: online manga?
hiddenxsadness: hahahaha
hiddenxsadness: read it yourself if you have the time
hiddenxsadness: but it was SO SAD
hiddenxsadness: when the song ended
hiddenxsadness: i was a little teary eyed :[
rosalie: aww. well i g2g. so ill ttyl
hiddenxsadness: bye bye

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 05:47:50 GMT

Totemo ureshikatta yo / kimi ga warai kakede taSubete o tokasu chou emi de

Haru wa mada tookute / tsumetai tsuchi no naka deMe fuku toki o matte ta 'n da

Tatoeba kurushii kyou da to shite moKinou no kizu o nokoshite ite moShinjitai / kokoro hodo ite yukere to

Umare kawaru koto wa dekinai yoDakedo kawatte wa ikeru karaLET'S STAY TOGETHER / itsu mo

Boku dake ni waratte / sono yubi de / nee sawatteNozomi bakari ga hateshinaku

Yasashiku shitai yo / mou kuyanu you niNageki no umi mo koete ikou

Tatoe kurushii kyou da to shite moItsu ka atatakana omoide ni naruKokoro goto subete nage daseta nara

Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yoUmare ochita yorokobi o shiruLET'S STAY TOGETHER / itsu mo

Tatoeba kurushii kyou da to shite moItsu ka atatakana omoide ni naruKokoro goto subete nage daseta nara

Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yoUmare ochita yorokobi o shiruLET'S STAY TOGETHER / itsu mo

Does anyone remember these lyrics? I wish we could all go back in time and smile together again. I wish

we could turn the hand back before the pain.

If only, if only.
Before the fairy tale ends.

Before the butterfly leaves the flower.

Smile for me.

Look at the flower petal.
That falls from the tree.

Since then, so much has changed. There are so many new problems. For everyone.

I ran across this on youtube and I listened to the song. Then I looked back on myself to find how much I'd

changed. It's...differnent. I guess I'm not used to this. I'm not as happy as before...

Tanoshii yuu ge / saa kakomimashouKyou no namida wa / kora / asu no chikara ni shite

LA LA LA / subarashiki / LOVE & LIFELA LA LA / ai subeki / LOVE & LIFE

Sei ippai datta ichinichi niSayonara to arigatouWaratte oemashouSore wa chiisa na inori

Haru / hana saki / midori moeru koroDonna namida mo / hora / kaze ni nagasarete ku

LA LA LA / subarashiki / LOVE & LIFELA LA LA / ai subeki / LOVE & LIFE

Thanks everyone. Hopefully it will be better next year.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 20:36:55 GMT

the mall. it was fun. heidi is now dead broke :X i spent exactly ALL my money xD how funny. these were my adventures!

+ took pictures at que
+ drank an ice cream soda for the first time! (too sweet...)
+ went to puente
+ bought those shirts ive been wanting O3O
+ taught leslie to color w/ marker (i'm a horrible teacher according to her xD)

the end. it was fun.